• Turn Your Life into a K-Drama

    In my twenties, I chased a dream that in the end, all I had to show for it was pieces of shattered goals and a crushed soul. I had failed at what I wanted to do, to be, and the realization of it took me to my lowest point in life. A decade wasted. The weight of it all and the shackles anxiety and depression trapped me in, completely paralyzed me. I shut the door on the world outside and isolated myself within the four walls of my bedroom. Fear, regret, tears and a deep sense of loneliness became my new best friends.

    But I found solace in Korean dramas, rediscovering them and falling in love with their heartwarming tales and swoon worthy scenes about the poor girl who catches the eye of a CEO millionaire, the down on their luck characters who rise above their circumstances or the heiress who falls for a North Korean solider. These stories were my escape, bringing me joy when very little else could. A change that didn’t go unnoticed by my family. In fact, when they began to see me laugh again, they decidedly kept their subscriptions to nearly every streaming platform so I could watch these dramas. I’ll never forget the day I asked my sister why she cancelled her HBO when she used it to watch her shows during dinner, and her answer? “Because I had to choose between HBO and Netflix, and I know you use Netflix to watch your Korean dramas.”

    Can you say best sister ever?

    It was the world of K-dramas and K-pop, a music genre I’d discover along the way, specifically a group called BTS, that gave me back my joy for life and new dreams to chase. In these two worlds I found myself again. It’s the reason I cried reading this book:

    Love is in Seoul

    This graphic novel, illustrated by the talented artist Paulina Márquez and written by Tania Navarrete (otherwise known as HelloTaniaChan on social media) tells the real-life story of how Tania managed to make all her dreams come true despite the obstacles and circumstances she faced. Who, in the end, turned her life into one of the very K-dramas she grew up watching.

    Now, I had known about Tania’s story before she released this book. Anyone who has watched her YouTube videos or follows her on Instagram can somewhat tell you about her journey. I remember when she made the Storytime video about how exactly she got to live in both Korea and Japan, it immediately became my go to video whenever I was feeling particularly down. So, I was beyond excited to finally get my hands on this book, especially after an unsuccessful attempt to find a copy when I visited my mom’s hometown in Mexico last year.

    And I really thought I knew her entire story, until I started reading El amor está en Seúl, that goes more in depth about her origin story, giving us details that weren’t mentioned in her Storytime YouTube videos. Or perhaps they were, and I just can’t recall. Don’t quote me on this.

    It’s also worth noting that the tones used for the illustration of the book were deliberately picked as pink is Tania’s favorite color while her husband’s (Hayato) is blue and when mixed together, those two colors make purple. Pretty neat, right? Well, so was her decision to incorporate the actual outfits she wore into the story and then sharing the actual photographs on her Instagram for us.

    Anyways, El amor está en Seúl, is a book I know I’ll cherish forever and reread again. It’s been days since I finished it and I’m still thinking about it. Why? Because I resonated with Tania, the girl who moved away after high school only to find herself back in her parent’s house, in a dead-end job, in her twenties, and feeling like she had failed at life. Tania, the girl passionate about Asian culture, in love with Korean dramas and who dreamed of going to Korea but finding it seemingly an impossible dream. The girl who, despite her fears, got on that plane to Asia.

    And while no two lives are alike, at the core we have all felt disappointment in life or feelings of inadequacy because we find ourselves at an age where we don’t have what society and even those around us like to point out that we should have.

    Tania’s story is a reminder that at any point, our lives can change. And interestingly enough, this book came to me at the perfect time. I’d gotten this book before I left on my trip to Europe with my sister but didn’t have a chance to read until I came back. And once I did, it only confirmed to me what I had quickly realized upon returning to the country I had been obsessed with in my twenties.

    It was no longer my dream. The spark was gone.

    In going back to the place I was sure my destiny rested in, I was able to make peace with the past and look towards the future. To give my one hundred percent to a new dream simmering in me for the past year but that I had been hesitant to pursue or give considerable attention to, unwilling to let go of what had been my first dream for so long.

    But really, I was just scared to start over. To make the wrong decision because I wasn’t that fresh out of high school kid with her whole twenties in the horizon anymore, no, once I hit thirty, life started to resemble an hourglass for me, with the sand moving at an alarming pace, inching closer to the end of another decade.

    I was terrified to wake up one morning, in my forties, and be in the same place. I knew the first step to making sure that didn’t happen was to make a decision. To take a risk.

    El amor está en Seúl inspired me to go after my dreams, or in my case, new ones. To take that risk. Turn my life into a K-drama. And I hope it does the same to you.

    It’s never too late to start again.

  • Dying a Virgin, How Not To

    Imagine you die without having been truly in love.

    Imagine dying without ever having had sex.

    Now picture a life not lived to the fullest to top it all off.

    Pretty bleak, huh? Tragic, I’d say.

    Well, that’s exactly what happens to twenty-seven-year-old Delphie in Kirsty Greenwood’s novel, The Love of My After Life, who dies choking on a cheap microwaveable burger, alone in her apartment in London. And when she finds herself in Evermore, being shown the movie of what was her life, comically played to the soundtrack of Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t She Lovely”, she realizes her last years were a cycle of working a job she didn’t love but at least paid the bills, and evenings doomscrolling on her phone or watching T.V.

    Day after day.

    Month after month.

    Years resembling nothing out of the ordinary.

    A wasted life.

    To make matters worse, the handsome man she briefly encounters in the afterlife who she has an instant connection with and thinks could very well be her soulmate, is abruptly sent back to Earth because oops, turns out it wasn’t actually his time yet. Luckily for Delphie, her afterlife therapist takes pity on her and offers her one last chance to return to Earth, but with a catch. She must find the man she just met (knowing only his first name and that he lives somewhere in London) and get him to kiss her out of his own free will or be stuck at Evermore forever.

    10 days. Find the guy. Get the kiss. Save her life.

    On my desk

    Okay, I’ll confess, the reason I loved this book was because I saw myself in Delphie. The homebody who preferred an evening in rather than out, who kept work colleagues and neighbors at a distance and made no attempt to date. Who was perfectly content in her own world, however small and somewhat solitary it seemed. Delphie didn’t know what life could be like until her quest forced her out of her apartment and comfort zone, and into a different way of living. One where she’s making friends, rediscovering her passion for art and falling for the unlikeliest of people. An accumulation of new experiences that makes her love her life. It made think about the infinite possibilities I might be missing out on in my own life. The adventures, friendships and probability of finding love that exists yet I’m not choosing to explore.

    And the reality is, unlike Delphie, we won’t get another chance at life. This is it. So, all I can say is let’s live it to the fullest. Whether that’s going to gym (but like, for real this time) to get into better shape, taking up a new hobby, or packing your bags and moving to a different country altogether, let’s do it. We’ll never know what could be, who we’ll meet or even become if we never give ourselves the proper chance.

    And if your keen on reading other witty, well-written and so fun to books from Kirsty Greenwood, who has become an instant favorite author of mine for writing about introverts like me and giving them the biggest and wildest adventures, here are two more recommendations:

    1. He Will Be Mine by Kristy Greenwood

    About an English girl named Nora who works as an admin assistant and leads a rather introverted existence, that is, until she sets off to Los Angeles, California to meet Hollywood’s hottest new star after seeing him on the big screen. Believing this celebrity is her soulmate, she is determined to somehow find a way into his inner circle, get to meet him and make him realize they’re meant to be. Talk about a crazy adventure waiting to happen.

    2. Big Sexy Love by Kirsty Greenwood

    Olive’s best friend is literally dying and her last wish? For Olive to head to the big apple, as in America, to track down the man she considered her first love. The only problem? Olive doesn’t do spontaneous things like that. In fact, she’s never taken a single risk in life or even left her hometown. Yup, she’s happy with the same routine, living in her childhood home, and with no resemblance of a love life. But to fulfill her best friend’s dying wish she’ll have to overcome her fears and be brave for once.

  • Book Adventures in Mexico

    This year I had the opportunity to travel to Jalisco, Mexico in the month of September and experience El Grito de Mexico and all the patriotic festivities. Growing up, I remember my mom telling me about these celebrations, specifically about the time she left a then boyfriend at the plaza and ran all the way home once the fireworks started because she got scared. I thought about that as I too found myself racing back to my family’s home, on the verge of a panic attack, from the same plaza my mom had decades earlier on the night of El Grito, expect of course, minus a boyfriend.

    The awareness that I was retracing my mom’s footsteps was quite surreal, and I finally understood her deep-rooted fear of pyrotechnics, because the fireworks in Mexico are no joke. In fact, my cousin pointed out the ice cream parlor we were to run for cover to avoid the fireworks that chase your feet. It should have been my first sign to leave.

    Aside from that, September was also the time of year when the corn crops were ready to be harvested and the hills all around town displayed a vibrant green, paving way to scenic nature drives and open star filled skies at night. It was beautiful.

    Nature at its finest behind me.

    And the one thing I made sure to do this time around was check out the local bookstores. On my previous visits I hadn’t bothered to do so. Why? I’m not sure but I vaguely recall a book stand at the plaza where I purchased the Spanish edition of Nick Vujicic’s Unstoppable: The Incredible Power of Faith in Action book, along with a book I’d gotten at the airport as I awaited my flight home. And because I remembered the lady running the book stand had a vast collection of bestselling books, I asked around when I didn’t see her post and was told by the locals it’s because she goes to other towns, and no one knows when she’ll be back until they just see her at the plaza with her book stand.

    So, I did the next best thing and googled searched the nearest bookstore to me and to my surprise, only one result came up. Nevertheless, I was determined to go and thankfully, with the help of the friendly locals in town, my sister and I were able to find the store before the rain started pouring. Ahh, taking refuge in a bookstore, I love it. Even when said safe haven was a bit on the smaller side with no windows and had a large display of cellphone cases for sale along with other random miscellaneous items. But I had the best time browsing the bookshelves that had a decent selection of YA books, mostly Wattpad Originals, but also a few other well-known books like Rebecca Yarros’ bestselling Fourth Wing, or as it’s titled in Mexico, Alas de Sangre. Fun-fact: The literal English translation of that would be Wings of Blood.

    Other books I saw were Stephen Chbosky’s The Perks of being a Wallflower and a lot of Jane Austin classics and some self-help books in the mix. What’s interesting is the books were all sealed and wrapped in plastic so you couldn’t necessarily skim through it or read the first pages as you would at a Barnes & Noble. Another thing I noted was they were all dusty, as if no one had picked up any of the books in ages or dusted the bookshelves. No matter, I ended up spending the equivalent to forty dollars on three books and was delighted to be informed by the lovely store owner that should I request any book in particular, she would try her hardest to get it for me as she frequently did whenever someone asked. I was searching for Gilraen Earfala’s Letter’s that were not sent book that I was told had been recently requested by another person.

    One of three books I got

    Next up, let’s talk about the libraries in town as I was fortunate enough to visit one thanks to my amazing aunt who, knowing my love for reading, took me to the local library so I knew where to check out books if I wanted to. Unfortunately, the employee there said I could only do so if I had a valid Mexican identification card, but if not, I was still welcome to come and read there anytime. He also emphasized that the library was currently undergoing renovations, the reason for the piles of boxes in the back and empty spaces. He let me browse the shelves and when I asked him if they held events, he said sure, that the teachers bring their classrooms, and they read stories to the kids.

    The library wasn’t that large and had a scarce selection of Young Adult books. However, copies of Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight series were all available but what stood out to me were the white covers that had only the title. No Edward Cullen’s hand holding the famous red apple or tie in movie poster cover. It was basically a white canvas with book title and author name printed. I wondered the reason behind this and if that was the case for all Spanish editions or I just stumbled onto a peculiar version.

    Another thing that was interesting about this library was the lack of books in the foreign language section, but I can say that they did have an abundance of literature from Shakespeare to Mexican authors. The science and history sections were also plentiful so that was pretty neat.

    The other library in town was the one located at the university about a ten-minute drive away, but as I wasn’t a student and it was gated, I wasn’t able to check it out. Maybe if I had asked, they would have let me tour their library but alas, I didn’t.

    Then, something remarkable happened, by sheer luck, during my last few days in Mexico, I saw the book stand at the plaza! I was beyond excited to see the familiar tent and its table overflowing with books which as you can see in the photo below, had a vast selection consisting of even Ali Hazelwood’s latest novel, Check & Mate along with other popular books. I was thrilled to see that.

    All in all, I really had the best time in my mom’s hometown. A place I’d have called home had my mom not immigrated to the United States. At times I wonder how different my life would have been if that were the case. If I had grown up in this small town instead of California. Would I have still found a love for reading? Want to be a writer?

    I’d like to think so. That in no matter what lifetime or country, I’d have still discovered my passion for reading and writing. It’s so engraved in me that I simply can’t imagine a world in which I’m doing anything else.

    But I can, however, envision a life in Mexico. It’s a country rich in culture and wonderful people and in my short time there, I was inspired to someday write a novel set there. I’m not going to lie, I even started taking notes already!

    I just wish books would be as accessible as they are in the states. How with a simple click of a button, you can place a book order on Amazon and have it delivered at your front door the next day. Or drive to any Barnes & Noble or local indie bookstore and be confident they’ll have the book you want in stock to purchase and take home that same day. Heck, even the large grocery stores would be sure to carry some books.

    Of course, I can’t speak for all of Mexico, and I’m sure in the bigger cities it’s easier to find a large variety of books, but as for my mom’s hometown? Where the nearest cinema is approximately three hours away and the international airport even further? And where I was told that having Amazon deliver is not that simple? And vendors who do carry books to sell try to get what they can?

    I wish it were.

    On another topic, BTS’s popularity knows no bounds as I stumbled upon a store selling K-pop posters and cups and obviously I had to get a BTS poster.

    On my bedroom wall.

    Well guys, that concludes this post and until next time.

  • Let’s Skip to the Good Part

    The good part in life. Where you’re living out your wildest dreams and finally have that picket white fence house with the garden you always talked about, filled with homegrown tomatoes, an orange tree and heck, even bananas, why not? Or living it up in a spacious flat in New York City where you get to read books for a living and travel to Germany for the Frankfurt Book Fair because you have a thrilling career in publishing. Instead of putting up with a threatening letter from your landlord because you placed a houseplant outside your overpriced flat’s patio for some much-needed sun and you’re so broke and far from having any resemblance of a career, you begin wondering if you need to be born again to start over. Or wait, is that just me?

    Whatever your dreams, I’m sure if you were offered the chance to rewind time and fix your mistakes to drastically alter your present, you’d take it. I know, I would. But what if you have no desire in the past or present moment and simply want to skip to the part of your life where you have everything you’ve ever fantasized of? The ideal career, partner, and a gorgeous bookshelf to house all your lovely books?

    A dream come true, right?

    I’d say so. Why not? In a heartbeat, I’d trade my current reality for a future one where I never have to swipe through another soul crushing dating app. But Sophie Cousens, being the brilliant writer that she is, shows us in her 338-page latest novel ‘The Good Part’, why it might not be the picture-perfect solution regardless of how shitty your life is that you’re begging a wishing machine for a change.

    And to be careful what you wish for.

    Photo Credit: Maria E.

    Lucy Young is twenty-six years old and her life sucks. No, really, it does. She lives in a crowded flat in London (but hey, at least it’s London) with inconsiderate roommates who use her hidden stash of toilet paper and a leaking ceiling coming from her upstairs neighbor’s faulty bathroom floor tiles that has her waking up in a drenched bed. At work, things aren’t any better. She’s underappreciated and while she’s technically been “promoted” from runner to junior researcher at When TV, she’s still fetching croissants and at the bottom of the TV chain. Life is definitely not going according to plan. So, when her best friend and roommate Zoya, the one person who makes her living conditions bearable announces she’s moving out and Lucy has yet another depressing date, she finds herself wishing on a wishing machine to skip to the good part in her life. The part where she’s got her shit together, a career and someone who loves her. And the next day, she wakes up to find her wish has been granted.

  • In love with your Best Friend? Read these books this Summer

    Another year, another summer. How many more until your heart decides to love another? Preferably one who isn’t the best friend you’ve been in love with since forever? I don’t know. But what I do know is that it’s a losing game to try to forget them. To replace them with another knowing they’d have to compete with someone who was there before them. Who holds more memories than you can count spanning years, if not decades with you. A friendship bond that only gets stronger with time. It’s a race they’d never win.

    Feelings don’t disappear overnight or in a week. And the reality is, sometimes they never do. You could spend years watering down those emotions, pretending you are happy just being friends, or maybe even go without contact only to realize down the road the connection is still there.

    So, if you’re the friend secretly pining for a friends-to-lovers trope miracle to happen in your life, you’re in luck because I have the perfect summer books to have you reminiscing about that friendship. Three stories that will keep the hope alive because as you’ll soon read about, odds are they love you back. Yes, in that way. And no one else stands a chance.

    1. Every Summer After by Carley Fortune
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    Percy and Sam. Follow them in this epic read as they meet and fall in love on the glittering lakeshore of Barry’s Bay when they’re just thirteen years old. Paving the way to six entire summers filled with endless movie nights, friendship bracelets, lazy days by the water and almost kisses. Until a colossal mistake costs Percy her friendship with Sam and has her trying to bury the past for a decade. But as life would have it, out of tragedy comes a chance to reunite and make things right. Alternating between two different timelines, read what happens when two former best friends reunite and discover the connection is still there.

    2. People We Meet on Vacation by Emily Henry

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    Poppy and Alex are total opposites. They should never have met let alone become best friends, but they did. Thanks to a fateful night at the University of Chicago and Poppy’s extroverted nature to talk to strangers or in this case, the only other person alone at orientation. Alex is shy and prefers to be at home with a good book whereas Poppy lives for adventure. A coincidence puts them together to carpool home to Ohio, solidifying their friendship that continues after they’re no longer students. Despite living in different states for most of the year, they come together every summer to vacation somewhere new. From Nashville to New Orleans and a small island off the coast of Florida, they’ve done it all. Then one ill-fated summer in Croatia ruins everything and they don’t speak for two years. Poppy, determined to right what went wrong, convinces Alex to take one last vacation, for old times’ sake. A trip to Palm Springs that neither knows what to expect.

    3. The Summer I turned Pretty Trilogy by Jenny Han

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    Belly has loved Conrad for as long as she can remember. It’s one of the reasons she’s always been excited to spend every summer at Cousins Beach. Three months of swimming, the beach, Fourth of July parties, and of course, the Fisher Boys. There’s Jeremiah, the youngest Fisher who Belly gets along with unlike his older brother, Conrad, whose emotions are hard to decipher. Sometimes it seems he reciprocates her undying love and other times it seems he just hates her guts. But a lot can happen in many summers and soon Belly finds herself in a love triangle with the two brothers, for which she will ultimately have to break one of their hearts.

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  • The Prince & The Apocalypse by Kara Mcdowell

    I’ll be honest, I had my doubts about this book. I had no idea how Kara Mcdowell was going to pull this off. An apocalypse? Falling in love at the end of the word? Sci-fi? And on top of all that, she sprinkles in a British prince (royalty!!) set against a devastatingly beautiful European backdrop. Like, what? I couldn’t wrap my head around this. I kept thinking she was going to bring the book of revelations to life.

    How wrong I was.

    The Prince & The Apocalypse far exceeded my expectations. I mean, just look at that gorgeous cover. At first glance, it’s enticing but once you read the book, you realize it’s perfection. It single handily captures everything in the story, down to the little details like the scar on our prince’s eyebrow. The only thing missing that now I’m thinking would have been awesome to include was Comet, the Apocalypse dog, but you know what? I get it, not enough room.

    So, by now you might be asking yourself, what’s this book about? Well, it’s about this American girl named Wren, who travels to London, England, and hours before she is set to fly back home, she encounters none other than the freakin crown prince of England. Talk about fate. And she saves this prince in distress from the paparazzi and ever grateful, he gives our heroine his number, telling her if she needs a favor, he owes her one. Wren is sure she’ll never need to until she misses her flight back home, gets stranded at Heathrow airport, and to her horror, discovers a massive comet is spiraling toward earth. It will wipe out 90% of the world with no hope for survival. It’s the apocalypse as she knows it. The world will end in 8 days. And Wren, devastated and frantic to get home to America, to at least see her family once more, calls Prince Theo to recruit his help, and together they end up on this whirlwind of a road trip across Europe to get to Greece, where the dashing fugitive Prince has promised Wren, he’ll have a private jet with a pilot ready to fly her home…if she can get him to Greece.

    REASONS TO PREORDER THIS BOOK:

    1. THE WRITING: My God, it’s wonderfully written, right down to the dialogue. I don’t know how many British films Kara had to watch, or the number of hours she spent hearing a posh English accent, but she nailed the British slang and pronunciation. This isn’t an author who simply reminds us throughout the story that her character had a lovely accent, no, she made sure we didn’t forget it with Theo’s every word syllable and mannerisms. It’s why Prince Theo felt so realistically…well, British. Doesn’t also hurt that I was laughing throughout the whole book from the banter between Wren and Theo and certain scenes during their epic road trip.
    2. A PRINCE AS THE LOVE INTEREST: Hello, need I say more? Who wouldn’t want a dashing, wealthy, next in line to the British throne to madly fall in love with you?
    3. MENTAL HEALTH RESPRESENTATION: One of the reasons I love Kara’s books is she doesn’t shy away from this topic and in this particular story, she surprised me.
    4. EUROPE AS THE SETTING: Did I mention the story takes place in Europe? Talk about road trip wanderlust.
    5. THAT ENDING: Okay, I don’t want to spoil anything but that ending has to be one of the best epilogues I’ve ever read. I was shocked. Literally had to pick my jaw off the floor and then giddy with excitement. That ending deserves an Oscar.

    THINGS I’M STILL WONDERING ABOUT:

    • The ten-day study abroad trip Wren took with her best friend/school. I don’t think I’ve heard of such a short progam, typically they run for a month at the very least.
    • Who was the inspiration behind Prince Theo? Was it Prince William or Harry? I kept getting a sense of both.
    • Did Queen Alice…because of Theo? Did she know what Prince Theo did? I have my theories.

    Side Note:

    After failing to win an arc from giveaways, I decided to request one on Netgalley and miraculously got approved. So HUGE thanks to them, St. Martin’s Press, Wednesday Books, and the person from their staff responsible for reviewing all the requests who decided I should be given one.

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  • Books that will Break Your Heart

    What’s worse than falling for someone in secret? Being rejected by them if you confess your feelings? I used to think so. Then I realized my heart didn’t break after they said no but it did when I watched them choose another.

    It’s worse when the person you like is your friend. The constant fixture in your life you can’t imagine without or not hearing from every day.

    True heartbreak is the agonizing moments you pretend to be happy for them, all the while you die inside with each comment on how amazing the other person is and just how much they really like them.

    It’s the tormenting thoughts you can’t stop because it’s hard not to compare yourself to the person they gave a chance to. To feel less than in those instances, wondering with tears in your eyes and seething jealousy why it couldn’t have been you. Knowing you would have loved them more. That you’d be so good together…if they only could see that. If.

    That kills.

    And here are two books that perfectly capture all the emotions about what happens when you fall for someone and give them your all, hoping they’ll return the love only to realize they’ve given it to another.

    1. Our Year of Maybe by Rachel Lynn Solomon

    This book wrecked me. All 366 pages of it. Get ready to have your heart shattered as you read about Sophie longing for her best friend Peter who desperately needs a kidney transplant. So, Sophie gives him one because she loves him that much. And yes, secretly hopes that after the transplant, he’ll perhaps love her back the way she’s always wanted him to. But in giving Peter a new kidney, she also gifts him the chance for a new life. One where she isn’t his only friend and soon Peter is making new memories that don’t necessarily involve her. As she grapples with this new reality and her feelings for Peter, her world comes crashing down when he tells her he’s fallen for someone else. Sophie doesn’t know who she or life is without Peter. And because she loves him so hopelessly, she can’t bear the thought of not being with him, of him not choosing her, especially when he once had feelings for her. Read what happens when friendship turns into heartbreak as two people try to hang on to whatever is left, neither wanting to let the other go until the night that changes everything for Peter and Sophie. A finale neither one nor I expected from this beautifully written novel.

    2. Dear Emmie Blue by Lia Louis

    Emmie has been in love with her best friend Lucas, for a while now. Six years to be exact of painful yearning in their fourteen-year-long friendship. It all started with a red balloon she released in the sky that had her email address when she was sixteen. A balloon that somehow drifted from England all the way to France, where it’d be found, deflated on a beach by a boy named Lucas who’d go on to write to the email address written on the tag. What were the odds this particular guy with the same age and birthday as her and the same obsession with Marmite and Footballers’ Wives would have found it? That they’d instantly connect and become inseparable? It was destiny, surely. This is why Emmie believed that when Lucas called her, asking her to come to France to the restaurant they’d been going to for years, their restaurant with the breathtaking view of the beach they’ve come to define as theirs, because he had something he wanted to ask her, Emmie was sure he was going to confess to secretly being in love with her and take their relationship from longest friends to boyfriend and girlfriend. Except he doesn’t ask her to be his girlfriend but to be his best woman because he’s getting married. To someone else. And now Emmie must fight the urge to tell him how she feels about him or shove those sentiments down and watch him marry another, while she stands beside him at the alter as his best woman.