• Life Goes On & March Favorites

    March ended with the bittersweet realization that the past is gone, and life goes on. That try as I might, some things cannot be mended. They are like shards of broken glass. Painful to look at, dangerous to pick up and impossible to put back. So, what can I do but accept what has been done.

    Opportunities pass. Friendships end. Promising relationships die an instant death. That is life. So, what can I do but recognize the facts and move on.

    I’ve heard the saying when one door closes, another one opens, but what about the time in between? That period of uncertainty when the past is still so fresh it stings, the present mundane with routine, and the future out of reach. Some days I feel so hopeful it’s like I can soar and accomplish all my dreams, but other times absolute dread it’ll all amount to nothing. So, what can I do but take the next step.

    Again.

    And again.

    And again.

    Getting out of my comfort zone hasn’t been easy. To be blunt, sometimes it’s so hard I want to quit and retreat to the familiar. To go back to the before. But I don’t turn back. No matter how I feel or how the world is, I take that next step forward, hoping it’ll lead to a beautiful life.

    Life goes on, and so I must too.

    A sentiment perfectly described in what I watched and read this past month. So, here are my March favorites and recommendations.

    1. When Life Gives You Tangerines
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    This Korean drama premiered on Netflix in March and literally brought everyone to tears. And for very good reasons because contrary to most K-dramas, this wasn’t a series where you had the standard handsome CEO or chaebol falling for his employee, or even the famous heiress or actress with a normal bloke, no, this was closer to reality. Set in Jeju Island in the 1950’s to Seoul and spanning generations, it tells the story of a bookish girl named Ae-sun, raised in a humble home by her hardworking haenyeo mother who wants nothing more than to see her daughter live a better life. Ae-sun wants this too, aspiring to be a poet, go to college in the mainland and marry a rich a man from Seoul. Yet she chooses the nice boy from the island, who loves her beyond measure. Together they form a family and Ae-sun realizes, she’s not that different from her mother. It’s what made this show a hit. To see a series depict life as it is, with all its ugly and beautiful moments and highlight the sacrifices parents, who were once also young and with dreams, make for the sake of their children. And to leave you with the understanding that despite all the hardships you’ll face in this world, with love and the right people at your side, it can still be a good existence. A beautiful life.

    P.S: You’re going to need a lot of tissues for this show.

    2. I’ll Be Right There by Kyung-Sook Shin

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    This book was a gem. Set in 1980’s Korea amidst student protests and unease, it tells the story of Jung Yoon as she recounts the formative years of her university days after she receives a call from the past. We follow her as she meets a professor, friends and her first love, the very people that will change her life. It’s a story filled with haunting tragedies yet also hope. A lesson within the pages that no matter how bleak the world is, love and friendship will continue to blossom in spite of everything. This book is also a great piece of literature that highlights a significant moment in Korea’s history and fight for democracy. I highly recommend this to anyone who wishes to learn more about this period in time.

    3. Rosa By Any Other Name by Hailey Alcaraz

    Kindle Arcs

    I was lucky enough to receive an ARC of this book from Netgalley, so thank you to the publisher for approving my request. It’s the first book I’ve ever read from author Hailey Alcaraz and it certainly won’t be my last because I absolutely loved this book. I read it in two days. And while the story itself is set in 1950’s Arizona, based on actual historical events, I couldn’t help but feel the similarities to what is happening today. And that’s heartbreaking. This book may be about a Mexican American girl keeping her true identity a secret and passing off as a white girl to make it in a society that doesn’t favor immigrants, and the Romeo and Juliet like tragedy that changes everything, but at the heart of it all, it’s a story about hope. The universal truth that life goes on, people move on, and change may not happen overnight but perhaps someday. And in the meantime? We carry on. It’s the message this book flawlessly delivers. I’d recommend this book to anyone who needs a bit of that. And to all the Mexican American girls like me who love seeing their culture and language represented in YA and guys like Marco as the love interest. Thank you, Hailey Alcaraz, it means the world.

    Additional Notes: If you’re like me and vaguely recall learning about the Chicano movement in school or the 1950’s, it might be helpful to read about it just briefly before starting the book to get an idea of the setting but if not it’s okay, the book does an excellent job bringing you into that period of time and by the last page you’ll have learned a lot.

    Other Worthy Mentions and all the Books I read in March:

  • Turn Your Life into a K-Drama

    In my twenties, I chased a dream that in the end, all I had to show for it was pieces of shattered goals and a crushed soul. I had failed at what I wanted to do, to be, and the realization of it took me to my lowest point in life. A decade wasted. The weight of it all and the shackles anxiety and depression trapped me in, completely paralyzed me. I shut the door on the world outside and isolated myself within the four walls of my bedroom. Fear, regret, tears and a deep sense of loneliness became my new best friends.

    But I found solace in Korean dramas, rediscovering them and falling in love with their heartwarming tales and swoon worthy scenes about the poor girl who catches the eye of a CEO millionaire, the down on their luck characters who rise above their circumstances or the heiress who falls for a North Korean solider. These stories were my escape, bringing me joy when very little else could. A change that didn’t go unnoticed by my family. In fact, when they began to see me laugh again, they decidedly kept their subscriptions to nearly every streaming platform so I could watch these dramas. I’ll never forget the day I asked my sister why she cancelled her HBO when she used it to watch her shows during dinner, and her answer? “Because I had to choose between HBO and Netflix, and I know you use Netflix to watch your Korean dramas.”

    Can you say best sister ever?

    It was the world of K-dramas and K-pop, a music genre I’d discover along the way, specifically a group called BTS, that gave me back my joy for life and new dreams to chase. In these two worlds I found myself again. It’s the reason I cried reading this book:

    Love is in Seoul

    This graphic novel, illustrated by the talented artist Paulina Márquez and written by Tania Navarrete (otherwise known as HelloTaniaChan on social media) tells the real-life story of how Tania managed to make all her dreams come true despite the obstacles and circumstances she faced. Who, in the end, turned her life into one of the very K-dramas she grew up watching.

    Now, I had known about Tania’s story before she released this book. Anyone who has watched her YouTube videos or follows her on Instagram can somewhat tell you about her journey. I remember when she made the Storytime video about how exactly she got to live in both Korea and Japan, it immediately became my go to video whenever I was feeling particularly down. So, I was beyond excited to finally get my hands on this book, especially after an unsuccessful attempt to find a copy when I visited my mom’s hometown in Mexico last year.

    And I really thought I knew her entire story, until I started reading El amor está en Seúl, that goes more in depth about her origin story, giving us details that weren’t mentioned in her Storytime YouTube videos. Or perhaps they were, and I just can’t recall. Don’t quote me on this.

    It’s also worth noting that the tones used for the illustration of the book were deliberately picked as pink is Tania’s favorite color while her husband’s (Hayato) is blue and when mixed together, those two colors make purple. Pretty neat, right? Well, so was her decision to incorporate the actual outfits she wore into the story and then sharing the actual photographs on her Instagram for us.

    Anyways, El amor está en Seúl, is a book I know I’ll cherish forever and reread again. It’s been days since I finished it and I’m still thinking about it. Why? Because I resonated with Tania, the girl who moved away after high school only to find herself back in her parent’s house, in a dead-end job, in her twenties, and feeling like she had failed at life. Tania, the girl passionate about Asian culture, in love with Korean dramas and who dreamed of going to Korea but finding it seemingly an impossible dream. The girl who, despite her fears, got on that plane to Asia.

    And while no two lives are alike, at the core we have all felt disappointment in life or feelings of inadequacy because we find ourselves at an age where we don’t have what society and even those around us like to point out that we should have.

    Tania’s story is a reminder that at any point, our lives can change. And interestingly enough, this book came to me at the perfect time. I’d gotten this book before I left on my trip to Europe with my sister but didn’t have a chance to read until I came back. And once I did, it only confirmed to me what I had quickly realized upon returning to the country I had been obsessed with in my twenties.

    It was no longer my dream. The spark was gone.

    In going back to the place I was sure my destiny rested in, I was able to make peace with the past and look towards the future. To give my one hundred percent to a new dream simmering in me for the past year but that I had been hesitant to pursue or give considerable attention to, unwilling to let go of what had been my first dream for so long.

    But really, I was just scared to start over. To make the wrong decision because I wasn’t that fresh out of high school kid with her whole twenties in the horizon anymore, no, once I hit thirty, life started to resemble an hourglass for me, with the sand moving at an alarming pace, inching closer to the end of another decade.

    I was terrified to wake up one morning, in my forties, and be in the same place. I knew the first step to making sure that didn’t happen was to make a decision. To take a risk.

    El amor está en Seúl inspired me to go after my dreams, or in my case, new ones. To take that risk. Turn my life into a K-drama. And I hope it does the same to you.

    It’s never too late to start again.

  • Dying a Virgin, How Not To

    Imagine you die without having been truly in love.

    Imagine dying without ever having had sex.

    Now picture a life not lived to the fullest to top it all off.

    Pretty bleak, huh? Tragic, I’d say.

    Well, that’s exactly what happens to twenty-seven-year-old Delphie in Kirsty Greenwood’s novel, The Love of My After Life, who dies choking on a cheap microwaveable burger, alone in her apartment in London. And when she finds herself in Evermore, being shown the movie of what was her life, comically played to the soundtrack of Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t She Lovely”, she realizes her last years were a cycle of working a job she didn’t love but at least paid the bills, and evenings doomscrolling on her phone or watching T.V.

    Day after day.

    Month after month.

    Years resembling nothing out of the ordinary.

    A wasted life.

    To make matters worse, the handsome man she briefly encounters in the afterlife who she has an instant connection with and thinks could very well be her soulmate, is abruptly sent back to Earth because oops, turns out it wasn’t actually his time yet. Luckily for Delphie, her afterlife therapist takes pity on her and offers her one last chance to return to Earth, but with a catch. She must find the man she just met (knowing only his first name and that he lives somewhere in London) and get him to kiss her out of his own free will or be stuck at Evermore forever.

    10 days. Find the guy. Get the kiss. Save her life.

    On my desk

    Okay, I’ll confess, the reason I loved this book was because I saw myself in Delphie. The homebody who preferred an evening in rather than out, who kept work colleagues and neighbors at a distance and made no attempt to date. Who was perfectly content in her own world, however small and somewhat solitary it seemed. Delphie didn’t know what life could be like until her quest forced her out of her apartment and comfort zone, and into a different way of living. One where she’s making friends, rediscovering her passion for art and falling for the unlikeliest of people. An accumulation of new experiences that makes her love her life. It made think about the infinite possibilities I might be missing out on in my own life. The adventures, friendships and probability of finding love that exists yet I’m not choosing to explore.

    And the reality is, unlike Delphie, we won’t get another chance at life. This is it. So, all I can say is let’s live it to the fullest. Whether that’s going to gym (but like, for real this time) to get into better shape, taking up a new hobby, or packing your bags and moving to a different country altogether, let’s do it. We’ll never know what could be, who we’ll meet or even become if we never give ourselves the proper chance.

    And if your keen on reading other witty, well-written and so fun to books from Kirsty Greenwood, who has become an instant favorite author of mine for writing about introverts like me and giving them the biggest and wildest adventures, here are two more recommendations:

    1. He Will Be Mine by Kristy Greenwood

    About an English girl named Nora who works as an admin assistant and leads a rather introverted existence, that is, until she sets off to Los Angeles, California to meet Hollywood’s hottest new star after seeing him on the big screen. Believing this celebrity is her soulmate, she is determined to somehow find a way into his inner circle, get to meet him and make him realize they’re meant to be. Talk about a crazy adventure waiting to happen.

    2. Big Sexy Love by Kirsty Greenwood

    Olive’s best friend is literally dying and her last wish? For Olive to head to the big apple, as in America, to track down the man she considered her first love. The only problem? Olive doesn’t do spontaneous things like that. In fact, she’s never taken a single risk in life or even left her hometown. Yup, she’s happy with the same routine, living in her childhood home, and with no resemblance of a love life. But to fulfill her best friend’s dying wish she’ll have to overcome her fears and be brave for once.

  • Book Adventures in Mexico

    This year I had the opportunity to travel to Jalisco, Mexico in the month of September and experience El Grito de Mexico and all the patriotic festivities. Growing up, I remember my mom telling me about these celebrations, specifically about the time she left a then boyfriend at the plaza and ran all the way home once the fireworks started because she got scared. I thought about that as I too found myself racing back to my family’s home, on the verge of a panic attack, from the same plaza my mom had decades earlier on the night of El Grito, expect of course, minus a boyfriend.

    The awareness that I was retracing my mom’s footsteps was quite surreal, and I finally understood her deep-rooted fear of pyrotechnics, because the fireworks in Mexico are no joke. In fact, my cousin pointed out the ice cream parlor we were to run for cover to avoid the fireworks that chase your feet. It should have been my first sign to leave.

    Aside from that, September was also the time of year when the corn crops were ready to be harvested and the hills all around town displayed a vibrant green, paving way to scenic nature drives and open star filled skies at night. It was beautiful.

    Nature at its finest behind me.

    And the one thing I made sure to do this time around was check out the local bookstores. On my previous visits I hadn’t bothered to do so. Why? I’m not sure but I vaguely recall a book stand at the plaza where I purchased the Spanish edition of Nick Vujicic’s Unstoppable: The Incredible Power of Faith in Action book, along with a book I’d gotten at the airport as I awaited my flight home. And because I remembered the lady running the book stand had a vast collection of bestselling books, I asked around when I didn’t see her post and was told by the locals it’s because she goes to other towns, and no one knows when she’ll be back until they just see her at the plaza with her book stand.

    So, I did the next best thing and googled searched the nearest bookstore to me and to my surprise, only one result came up. Nevertheless, I was determined to go and thankfully, with the help of the friendly locals in town, my sister and I were able to find the store before the rain started pouring. Ahh, taking refuge in a bookstore, I love it. Even when said safe haven was a bit on the smaller side with no windows and had a large display of cellphone cases for sale along with other random miscellaneous items. But I had the best time browsing the bookshelves that had a decent selection of YA books, mostly Wattpad Originals, but also a few other well-known books like Rebecca Yarros’ bestselling Fourth Wing, or as it’s titled in Mexico, Alas de Sangre. Fun-fact: The literal English translation of that would be Wings of Blood.

    Other books I saw were Stephen Chbosky’s The Perks of being a Wallflower and a lot of Jane Austin classics and some self-help books in the mix. What’s interesting is the books were all sealed and wrapped in plastic so you couldn’t necessarily skim through it or read the first pages as you would at a Barnes & Noble. Another thing I noted was they were all dusty, as if no one had picked up any of the books in ages or dusted the bookshelves. No matter, I ended up spending the equivalent to forty dollars on three books and was delighted to be informed by the lovely store owner that should I request any book in particular, she would try her hardest to get it for me as she frequently did whenever someone asked. I was searching for Gilraen Earfala’s Letter’s that were not sent book that I was told had been recently requested by another person.

    One of three books I got

    Next up, let’s talk about the libraries in town as I was fortunate enough to visit one thanks to my amazing aunt who, knowing my love for reading, took me to the local library so I knew where to check out books if I wanted to. Unfortunately, the employee there said I could only do so if I had a valid Mexican identification card, but if not, I was still welcome to come and read there anytime. He also emphasized that the library was currently undergoing renovations, the reason for the piles of boxes in the back and empty spaces. He let me browse the shelves and when I asked him if they held events, he said sure, that the teachers bring their classrooms, and they read stories to the kids.

    The library wasn’t that large and had a scarce selection of Young Adult books. However, copies of Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight series were all available but what stood out to me were the white covers that had only the title. No Edward Cullen’s hand holding the famous red apple or tie in movie poster cover. It was basically a white canvas with book title and author name printed. I wondered the reason behind this and if that was the case for all Spanish editions or I just stumbled onto a peculiar version.

    Another thing that was interesting about this library was the lack of books in the foreign language section, but I can say that they did have an abundance of literature from Shakespeare to Mexican authors. The science and history sections were also plentiful so that was pretty neat.

    The other library in town was the one located at the university about a ten-minute drive away, but as I wasn’t a student and it was gated, I wasn’t able to check it out. Maybe if I had asked, they would have let me tour their library but alas, I didn’t.

    Then, something remarkable happened, by sheer luck, during my last few days in Mexico, I saw the book stand at the plaza! I was beyond excited to see the familiar tent and its table overflowing with books which as you can see in the photo below, had a vast selection consisting of even Ali Hazelwood’s latest novel, Check & Mate along with other popular books. I was thrilled to see that.

    All in all, I really had the best time in my mom’s hometown. A place I’d have called home had my mom not immigrated to the United States. At times I wonder how different my life would have been if that were the case. If I had grown up in this small town instead of California. Would I have still found a love for reading? Want to be a writer?

    I’d like to think so. That in no matter what lifetime or country, I’d have still discovered my passion for reading and writing. It’s so engraved in me that I simply can’t imagine a world in which I’m doing anything else.

    But I can, however, envision a life in Mexico. It’s a country rich in culture and wonderful people and in my short time there, I was inspired to someday write a novel set there. I’m not going to lie, I even started taking notes already!

    I just wish books would be as accessible as they are in the states. How with a simple click of a button, you can place a book order on Amazon and have it delivered at your front door the next day. Or drive to any Barnes & Noble or local indie bookstore and be confident they’ll have the book you want in stock to purchase and take home that same day. Heck, even the large grocery stores would be sure to carry some books.

    Of course, I can’t speak for all of Mexico, and I’m sure in the bigger cities it’s easier to find a large variety of books, but as for my mom’s hometown? Where the nearest cinema is approximately three hours away and the international airport even further? And where I was told that having Amazon deliver is not that simple? And vendors who do carry books to sell try to get what they can?

    I wish it were.

    On another topic, BTS’s popularity knows no bounds as I stumbled upon a store selling K-pop posters and cups and obviously I had to get a BTS poster.

    On my bedroom wall.

    Well guys, that concludes this post and until next time.